Long time no see

been to busy after i started training at T. Many things happen but can't find the time to do it.

Finally got the time on Friday during lunch break (^^).


hm...currently on my mind are only 2 things. or more specifically 2 guys :P

first, i met this guy during my interview for T. He's one of the interviewer for the 1st stage. cute XD
He even tried to help me to pass the 2nd stage interview but i rejected it nicely coz i wanted to pass the interview with my own strength and not with the help of others. But he did gave me a tip on how to pass & what the interview is all about. how nice rite? hehe~

We haven't bumped into each other until last week at the Sports Arena where my collegues are playing futsal. Just came to watch. miss the old days playing futsal with my PN friends (T_T)

Anyways, in the middle of waiting near the court I saw him. I shall refer him as Mr. T :D

He was facing the court and carrying a tenis racket i think. And when he turned, our eyes met for the 1st time...hehe~ like romance novel plak. at first, i was quite surprise and unsure. unsure if the guy is the same guy who interviewed me. but i smiled anyways and i think he smiled back...i don't know, kinda dark so can't be sure (>_<)

after that, i tried not to look at him. just focus on my collegues and pretend he wasn't there. then when the game starts, a friend & i went to the other side of the court to sit. From there, i saw him talking to Syam. cute guy too but engaged :(

They seem to be friends and once in a while i'll steal a glance or two at him :P He seems to lepak there quite long just watching the match and talking to Syam. or maybe its just my wishful thinking that he stayed because of me....hahahaha!

Second is about my collegue Mr U. I don't know if its just my imagination. but i seem to make eye contact with him in a sudden kinda way a lot. and when we made eye contact, it feels long & magnetic? its different from sudden eye contact with my other collegues. i think his eyes is a bit strong? it requires a lil bit more strength to look away...hehe~

Baru 2 bulan training and i already out of focus...huhu~ talking about training, the trainees here are ok. But LIKE ALWAYS, i can't really blend 100% with the other malay collegue in a social perspective. they are all very outgoing and the way we talk are different. we're using the same malay language but somehow different. the way they joke around and the topic that they talk about...i can't seem to blend in (T_T)


I'm proud to be of mixed race person but sometimes i just wish i'm not. when i'm with malays, i don't feel that i'm a part of them. when i'm with my chinese family, its a bit more awkward since i can't speak hokkien and can't drink alcohol and can't eat pork. luckily can speak english...lol!

everyday malay phrases like "buat susah-susah je blablabla" etc or what u call berbasa-basi i think?...its really hard for me to say those words. used to hear my mom, nenek, aunty saying those phrase but still, i find it difficult to utter those words. i tried once before and it was damn awkward (>_<).

after all this, i'm very thankfull that i have 2 close malay friends, laily and ainis. for some reason, we connected...well, at least thats how i feel. 2 malay friends are better than none right (^^)

until next time...